Tuesday, December 30, 2008

i need 2 eat. my soul do NEED 2 e.a.t too

i've already finished nasi lemak. waa? having nasi lemak at 4.30 pm? ya lor, i had no either breakfast or lunch 2day. dunno y. bt seems lyk i've no appetite, guess so. i thought dai i wont feel sad anymore, bt then, 2day, i cried. hehe. wut 2 do. i'm sad! yeah. but then, aftr i read iluvislam, i feel so calm now. n after talking wif pn saidah n en guzali 4 a while, i feel so calm. thnx 2 u both. u both lyk my own parents. :) i hope our relation will never end. insyaAllah. erk.alhamdulillah. finished my nasi lemak. hehe. bt my soul need even more 'food'. so i need 2 gve my soul n heart their own food. i read Quran, n its translation, yeah, so calm now. my heart n soul already got its own food. only Allah's words can mke everythng back 2 normal. :) im not afraid of anythng now, dun even wnt 2 care wut others might talk bout me, bt 4 d real is, i juz wnt b loved by Allah. n if i wish so, i must follow all His words. i wnt 2 b a gud gurl. so dat my parents will proud of me. n so all my fmly mmbrs. now, i juz wnt 2 focus on stdy, n searching for Allah's love. :) thnx 2 everyone who has helped me a lot, but mostly, 2 Allah, who has given me a chance 2 change. i feel so happy now. wif Him by my side. no turning back. :) ya Allah, gve me strength. im afraid of u. n i hope 4 ur forgiveness. bt sumtymes i thnk back, do i desrve ur forgiveness. i deserve nothng. bt now, i juz wnt Your love. i always wanted 2 b wif u, Ya Allah. hope dat i'll do my best duniawi n ukhrawi. ya Allah. help me.

" org2 yg beriman dn hati mereka mnjadi tenteram dgn mengingati Allah"

10 comments:

Yard said...

hangat2 taik ayam je nie
ha3..jht gle ak
2 ar..spe suh reject ak dr bnde alah 2..kan ak da jd jht
ala ko nie
sbb bnde 2 pown nk sedih..tah pape r
mat indon kne torture pn x nangis tau x
ha3

aiN_z said...

eleyh
sbb ko mat indon nye
hehe
:p

Yard said...

ko la minah indon
kne marah dgn "org tu"..da nangis
ha3

ain z said...

yat ni suke dengki .
xpuas hati sgt
da mat indon tuh mat indon gak
huhu

Yard said...

booo
LOSER..nangis x tentu psl
ha3

aiN_z said...

yatjahat!!
suke dengki!!

Yard said...

ha3
"Apabila kai ign berteman.jgnlah pndg kelebihannya(igt tu..jgn tgk ak teror men bola je..hua3) kerana mgkn dgn 1 kekurangan(sepak bola x msk gol) kau akan menjauhinya.
Andai kau berteman.jgnlah pula dinilai kebaikannya(ak xde kebaikan..sry) kerana mgkn dgn 1 kelemahan(ak la..mcm ko ckp..jht..)kau akan membencinya.Andai kau berteman,jgn diuji akan ilmunye(jgn tnye ak chem..ak biol..ha3) kerana apabila dibuntu(x dpt 42) kau akan menyisihkannya.Andai kau berteman.trimalah dia seadanya kerana dia(HIDAYATULLAH) hnye sorg manusia biasa.spt dirimu.bertemanlah kerana Allah.insyaAllah akan diberkatiNya"

-msg from dia..

aiN_z said...

alhamdulillah
isy3
ko xtaw agy ke ak mmg IKHLAS jd kwn ko
ko tuh je ak rse cam de mksd nk kwn ngn ak..
be ak wt silap sket, ko ckp ak jahat
pastuh xnk kawan ak
haaaa
sape yg xbtol nih
hehhe
so, accept me in d way i am.

Yard said...

ye la ain..
ko sume btol
hua3

aiN_z said...

yat hampeh

:p